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Saturday, April 2, 2011

To Change or To Not Change My Major? That is The Question...

The time to start picking classes for next semester is quickly approaching...and the time for me to make up my mind about switching my major is right now. Problem is, I just can't make up my mind. I am completely torn. I was so sure 2 years ago that becoming a substance abuse counselor was the way to go. I love helping people and addiction has always intrigued me. It's overwhelming power and the way it changes people for the rest of their lives fascinates me. Addiction is just as much a disease as cancer or diabetes is, I have seen the grip it has on people. I have witnessed lives being destroyed. So, it just made sense that I would be a substance abuse counselor. Sure I had my doubts. I do get very emotionally involved and I worried that I would let other people's problems consume my own life. But, I had no other career possibilities. I thought about being a paralegal. I just did not feel passionate about it. Then I became Editor-in-Chief of the school newspaper...and I began to realize how much I doubted my career choice. See, writing has always been my first love. I love it more than anything. I love the power writing has. I love it's beauty. I write poems, stories, lyrics...I even started writing a screenplay. But I never thought as writing as a career. It just seemed impractical to me. Then this newspaper thing literally fell into my lap, and it awakened the dreamer in me. I love the paper. I love the intense craziness of the deadlines. I love seeing the paper when it's complete. I love writing for it. So, here I am...30 years old...and have no clue what to do about my situation. Do i follow my dream? Or do I stay with the sensible career that will most likely make me miserable in 5 years? A really close friend told me"Do what makes you happy". His words stuck with me...and I started to think...and think,,,and think. Clearly, I still haven't made much progress. Thankfully, I have a meeting with a career counselor next week...cause time is ticking...and now is the time to change my major. In my heart I know what I want to do, but is this one of those times where you ignore your heart? To be continued...

1 comment:

  1. We have so much in common. I'm EIC of my school paper as well, and I've debated changing my major many times, I've even called it my "mid-college crisis." The only advice I can give is to do what feels right. Like the saying goes, you'll never work a day of your life if you do something you love! Good luck!